Day 1

Sounds kinda cliché-ish "Day 1", especially since I have had more day 1's when it comes to health and fitness than I can probably count on a million fingers if I had a million fingers to count on.  Nevertheless, I do have this subliminal determination that seems to haunt me with every bite that goes into my mouth and every day that comes to an end and I have done absolutely nothing to better my health (not even a measly walk for 30 minutes, 15 minutes even). 

There is something about a self destructive behavior that nags at me all throughout the day, its like a monkey on my back, weighing me down and truly distracting me.  Those flashing messages of "I'm full but just one more bite" or "I hate exercising" have become repeated phrases to pacify me at the moment of weakness or just when I feel like being lazy.  I have more excuses than I probably have life left on this earth when it comes to why I shove unhealthy foods into my mouth and why I despise exercise.  But honestly, for me it just boils down to commitment.  I suck at long term commitment when it comes to my health.  I know right? That sounds terrible but it is soooo freaking true.  I am committed to my job, my spouse, family and my faith, but taking care of myself is a completely different story.

So like the massive number of folks who start a new diet and exercise plan at the start of the new year, I find I will be one of them this year.  I don't frown on folks wanting to take that jump into health and fitness at the start of a new year, but I never really saw myself jumping in too. I'm guessing the main reason why I never saw myself is simply because my clothes still fit - tah dahh.  I still could not bring myself to start up with everyone else which is why I am starting a few days earlier.  I guess I have always dared to be different and today is no exception.

So my weapon of choice is "Leslie Sansone, Walk your way to Thin." this should be interesting.  Today consisted of a 3 mile walk and lower body slimming.  I managed to get through the entire video but I love how she said near the end (3rd mile), "If you are new then you shouldn't be doing all the body slimming exercise".  Well heck, I am almost done and now you tell me?  But I am competitive with myself and decided, I am in it to win it (I've always wanted to say that).  Its now 2-hrs later and standing let alone walking is painful.  I feel like poooh and although I need to take a long hot bath, that would require me moving any other part outside of my fingers which I don't think I can do right now.

Monday I will be back at it. Why? BECAUSE LESLIE SANSONE SAYS SO.  I know I sound pretty whiny so I ask for your forgiveness right now.  I usually see the positive in life, but right now all I see is the distance from my dining room table to the shower which seems to be a million miles apart. 

Anyway, I will try this again Monday and the days thereafter.  Maybe by the  time the new year swings in, the pain will be gone and I will be screaming BRING IT LESLIE!  Maybe.